Stephanie Chow

Busy

2009-12-12T16:10:00.000-08:00

My love!! Blackie!

Nice?

The entrance............

The racing game booth!

Inside was like a maze!!

Kitty handbags!!

Time was running out!! I left with 20 mins to complete the race!

One of the booth !! Hello Daniel......

Simply love the interior but i was too engrossed to complete the race and end up taking little pictures ...... How sad?

Tada.......

Had not been updating this boring blog of mine cos i had not send my lappy for repair !! So friends , please endure with me for another month , hopefully i can get it done a.s.a.p cos i have lots of photos to upload ...... Busy working these days and hardly get time to rest !! Yes , 2009 is coming to an end , and im still working towards my goal !! Through out the year was tough for me and i really slog BIG TIME !!

But i guess the toughest days in my life i had already experience and there is nothing more i couldn't take it !!!

I had got friends who are always there for me, encouraging me , helping me through out this difficult time, and i felt blessed !! Check out the pictures i took in Kitty Lab!! It was costly , but awesome cos i won myself the kitty badge and stuff (will upload the picture of the badge in my next post!! ......... Hopefully can get my lappy fixed soon so i wont have to use my cousin's ........

Am not happy recently due to my family issues and simply don't feel like talking or saying much anymore !!! I always forgive and forget cos no one in this world is perfect unless you are God!

Lasty , I will be having a small gathering with my gal friends these thursday at neil rd 45A Krugers pub , so friends please don't be late , see you gals at 8pm!!!

ZzZ............................

2009-11-11T14:20:00.000-08:00

Ok.. Finally got the chance to update my blog cos my laptop still not in working condition , so has to use my cousin's lappy....... Yeah!!

Busy working recently , so hardly got time to relax , always slag at home after work than watch movie till morning ..... Knowing that's not healthy and also causing me to have super bad dark circles and eye bags. Any recommendation on any good eye creams cos i really need it badly......

2009 is coming to a end , that also means my 26th birthday is coming , O no !! Can't believe it time really files ....... Last year was a year which i faces lots of problems plus someone that was important in my life was gone !! Never will i ever see or talk to her again !! Always cherish your close ones cause you might not know what will happen tomorrow !! Till now , I can still say i can't get over and neither will i forget her, ( which was my mum!! )

It took me quite some time to slowly get my life back in track, and i'm proud to say i had gone through all bad and unhappy things in my life , through out the year , i thought i would meet someone that would comfort me plus go through all this shit in my life, but i was totally wrong, ... I realized i was going through all this by myself , and there is nothing more worst i can't take it!! Friends always tell me , ( After raining days ,there will be rainbow !) and i believed .

I can say i'm up another level of independent , and also i can adjust my feelings and emotions which i don't think many people can take it if they were me ! I'm more happier now and it's time to get all important things i need to settle to be done !! I take things easily now and i won't even wan to let any small tiny weeny issues that affects me!! Always believed having positive attitude is the key to success !!

Time to ZzZzZ....... will update soon!! Can't wait for sunday !! Miss having steamboat again.

Nitz..............

2009-10-22T10:03:00.000-07:00

Am busy recently , work la, dogs la, etc..... haven been updating that much as im facing problems with my com again !!! OMG! This time round , my cousin told me my hard disk got problem and i need to send for repair again!! Haven been sleeping well thee days , maybe due to weather , or my sleeping pattens ? I always got this habit of drinking lots of water before i head to my bed which was no Good! Next day you will end up with puffy eyes , sometimes suffer from water retention as well !Try not to drink too much water before you head to bed . Am suffering from mood swings these days.

Why do women have mood swings? And usually women have higher rates of depression and they are more likely to go to the doctor and say " I'M DEPRESSED! And men are more likely to have a drinking problem and say they are STRESSED!''. I strongly believed the body of evidence emerging that and male and female brains are wired differently . Some of the symptoms of depression 1. Excessive sleepiness, 2. Overeat or have other anxiety disorders. IWeekend is near, time to rest well and looking forward to ma la steamboat again!! Am watching the hong kong series (Tang xin fong pao) these days when im home ...... Its addictive !!! Trust me.....

Time to update!

2009-10-08T14:43:00.000-07:00

Time to update!! haha.. had been really busy these days so i din' t really update this boring blog of mine!! ( actually i'm lazy....) Hee hee .... Was thinking of changing my blogskins and the songs i'm hook on recently !!

Ever since i got my lappy back , im taking very good care of it , am still working towards my goal, slogging like nobody's business !! wad da? Anyway, work was tiring , but when working with all your friends that were cheeky and funny really let time passed super fast !! Got tons of pics to upload , i will.......... Plss wait!!

I'm happy and i want to thank friends who are really with me at this point of time !! I don't have to mention names , but you gals should know , i truly appreciate !!( thanks hor !) .... Cause i believed my life is gonna have a break through in no matter of time !! Trust me! ......

Not getting any younger , so i had nothing to complain about unless work la !! keke ..... Other than that , i don't even GIVE A F*#$!

I always hopes to see the invisible , feels the intangable and archive the impossible !! You know what? You won't wana mess around with me cos im a real MoTher F*#$er in da world That DON"T GIVE A F****!!!

For everyone's info,

1. Being gentle towards friends does not mean you are kind!!

2. Being humble does not mean you stupid!!

3. Being sad or depressed does not even mean you acted pity !!!

I strongly believed god is blessing me with wonderful friends around me , not everyone is perfect in this world unless you are GOD!! So no point judging people when we ourselves are not perfect!!! SO? Don't judge !!!

Got to sleep !! Work and work.... jia you!! :P

2009-09-27T14:58:00.000-07:00

Joeline's birthday party!

the sun was too glaring , cant really focus !

from left: vick , bernice, me, pearlyn,joeline,stella, joeline's friend,stacie!

look at all the expressions !

trying hard to jump as high as i can !

Damn funny!

Girly affair !!!!!!!!!

Hey hey....... Super busy recently , no time to update my blog ...., all i can say is time flies ..... Its already september coming october and 2009 is coming to a end!! How Sad ? Had been really really stressed up with work, and alot of issues , but i always tell myself things will be better very single day !! Am starting my bible studies very soon , yippy !! Most likely to be on ever sat before my svc.... last week was a hectic week for me, o ya!! ,Had start working partime at ratchada and its crazy, normal dance shows we usually dance 3 sets and duration was 10 to 15 mins every segment! But ratchada was abit different , we dance like 6 sets and duration was really 15 to 20 mins , 2 sets at one go, example : we dance 15 mins already , than rest 10 mins , waiting for the other group of dancers to perform, so after the other group of dancers finish than we perform again!! Quite tiring , but interesting if working with your friends .... hee , its early morning and im trying my best to go to sleep!! Will update soon !!

Updates Since july!!!!!!.......

2009-09-09T14:43:00.000-07:00

Cute handbags that i bought!

All from juicy couture !!!

Some of the cosmetics....

Too tired to go dinner !! So order room service !! cheap and nice !

candid shot!!

We were at RCA .....

Our thai friend !

All tired !!

Enjoying ......

Super nice !!

After dinner !!

The hotel i stayed!! quite nice .....

Vic and me

stacie and me!

Hee !! cam whoring time !

First day of arrival !!

Will not miss this if im going bkk again !!!

Cos its super delicious and im missing it!!

Tada! ! Hello kitty handbag!! So sweeet .....

This man travel alone and he is holding a luggage and something interesting!!

On our way to airport!

bernice's birthday!

So many things to update, manage to settle some of my debts , but still, more to go .. Faint!!

Bills are pilling up like nobody's business, what the .... ? I need to get a new weighing machine , cos the previous one already not working .. how sad, i have a habit of keeping track of my weight . Had been sleeping late all these while , dark circles under my eye are super duper obvious .. concealer dosen't seems to help ... Arrrugh!!! I need emergency eye mask!!!!

anyway... still trying to upload my photos since june , too many photos , will update soon...

Busy!

2009-08-27T05:54:00.000-07:00

Had been really busy these days !! tons of photos to upload , but come to realized there is some problems with blogger.com .. Im still trying to figure out wad is wrong !!
Settings has been changed and im having problems uploading my photos .. Anyway , Got my lappy back finally , since may i thought so , my macbook was send to sim lim square for emergency treatment .. till recently 2 weeks back , i got it back and finally repaired !! Yippie!! Will update soon ..............Yawnz.....

Shopping and my doggies !!

2009-08-03T13:43:00.000-07:00

My bear !! muhahah!

Yin yin with no more bangs !!keke

Skin care from Skinfood!!!

Lovely hello kitty tissue box and packet tissues !

1st dress $32.90 but i got the 2nd piece for only $14.00

original price $39.90 but i manage to bargain till $35.00 plus its only one piece !

Gucci Rush 2 !

2 flora dresses !

the side view!

Only $10 bucks and its the last pair!

Finally took a off day and went to do some shopping for myself!!! Am glad i got all cheap stuffs from bugis village... Some of the things i bought was either last pair or last piece , Unbelievable !! Had recovered from all sickness ! yippy ! No more fever, flu, cough..... Going for steamboat very soon again !! yeah.. more updates to come ...... Tata :P

SIck! and sick !

2009-07-29T14:23:00.000-07:00

Shaky Hands !! But still like the effect!!

That's Blackie!!

My disgusting Drip!!

Hey hey , finally got the energy, time to update....... Last tuesday was my first time having fever for the year 2009, i seldom get any fever , but nightmare starts last tuesday while i was out working , i know i wasn't feeling too well , after a few drinks , realized my body burning like unusual me , hee hee .... cause i always thought i could hold my liquor well !!! But i was wrong , feeling so sick that i had to go Sgh , got my tempreture taken, 39.49 degrees.. OMG!!! Im panic , cos i got , fever, flu, cough as well...... Suspected H1N1 ??? Waited , Was praying in my heart while waiting , than finally seen the doctor. Checked everything, and he said , its not H1N1 ... hee good thing , bad thing was the medicine... Too many , countless .. cough la, flu, muscle ache, vitamin c, gastrics , Oral rehydration salts , and a few others ... Im a person who dosen't even take regular meals , so wad about medicines ?HaHa . .. As days goes by , i tried to eat abit , than take medicines on time , so i thought i was recovered!!

But on monday , maybe due to weather , I was out to work as usual cos i thought i was fit enough, half way through having the feverish feeling again .. So, i quickly head home , had my tempreture measured again , this time round was 38.85 .... I thought maybe a cold shower could helped me cool down , but after showered, my tempreture went rising up and down like a stock market !! It went from 38.85 ,than 39.49 and goes on..... I has no choice but to get changed and a friend of mine had to send me to SGH in the morning around 2.30 am. There goes my $90 bucks again!!! Sigh......

Dripped for 2 hours , got my blood tested and X-tray taken......

Thank god my tempreture went back to 36.66 after the dripped and everything is fine , just needed good rest ! Yippy! Im well !! Drink more water, take medicine on time , smoke less .......... :P

awesome nights out and my puppies !

2009-07-17T14:32:00.002-07:00

Tadah!

That's ying ying!

My visitor today( Mr Spots)

Spots !

Bernice,stacie and cash!

And we camwhore abit................

All trying to look sober ....lolx

And guess who's behind us?

Always so nice seeing her !

As usual, yan and cash!

After working so hard on that day , and than met up with my gal friends for drinks ..., we went nana instead . Din't bring my camera out so used my Lg phone to snap down some memorable moments !

Finally its weekend ! My only time to rest and also spending time with my cousin's , and brother . . Went for chongqing mala steamboat earlier on and back tired and bloated with all the spicy soup ... Am loving it !! Got a surprise when i woke up this evening !! Know why? Cos jasmine bring's spots back today!! I nearly got a shock when my cousin brought the dog in to my room which i thought it was my blackie at first as they looks quite similar but came to realized it was not cos blackie wasn't that big size as spots ! im happy his back !! Waggling his tail when i hugged him ... Good boy!

In next 2 weeks , alot of things and upcoming events so i need to rest early as i can every single day if i can, need to wake up early to get things done .. No more late sleeping nights as my eye bags is getting more obvious now , Cant believe it and i really need a good rest !! Will update soon!! Cheers......

Sick!

2009-07-14T13:38:00.000-07:00

Magnesium Trisilcate !

Relief for gastric pain, heat burn, and indigestion due to excessive acid . It acts by neutralizing the acid.

Arrugh ! Feeling unwell recently , Gastric problems again ... This time round not too bad as my previous case.. Although i only eat like one meal a day or maybe two , i will always drink a glass of milk or water when i wake up ! .. But i was too busy last week with outside events, so last week , as usual , can't remember which day it was , i was so hungry and i bought some food to eat from my work place , Erm .. which i like , plain rice with 3 other dishes , vegetables , fish and egg plus a soup ! I was super duper hungry that i finish everything in less than 10 mins ! Muhahah! Power right?

After that , while i was working , i felt slight pain in my stomach, i thought maybe i m too bloated or what? .... But when im home, the pain worsen , than it goes on. Can feel like my intestine's outer skin tearing ! Really painful, no joke ! I did not see a doctor cos it was a saturday , and clinic closes around 12 noon

Luckily my cousin got the medicine for gastric pain ...

And i feel slightly better after a few dosages.. :p

Thank god! .....

Thats all for now.......ZzZzZz

Tired!

2009-07-03T14:42:00.000-07:00

From a old fashion minded lady............

To a really beautiful and sweet lady.......

One of the funny moments !

Cast:Kim Jeong-Hwa, Yeon jeong-hoon, Jo yoon-hee and Lee wan

Had been slogging really really hard these days ....... Finally it's a day i can relieved myself in the room with no handphone ringing and stuff.... Had also finish watching this korean series show title<> ..... I can say its a romantic , funny , touching story about love relationships . Worth to watch it , i finishing watching within a week !! Amazing !... Sat will be really busy day for me , hopefully i can wake up early to get my nails done, collect my lappy, attending services at 3pm and lastly 2 birthday party to rush to ....... tight schedule huh?

A new beginning for me , will be really really busy these 2 months if im not wrong , haven been doing much dance show these days , too much work and things to meddle with ..... O well ! Im eventually a more happier person now , doing the things i want, and hopefully i can get all problems settled in the shortest time and go back to studies .....

Lastly am selling my puppies away, anyone keen or looking for 4 months old puppies let me know .... Got a male or a female ! Shih tsu.. Will upload more pics soon!!

It's 6am in the morning and im drowsy .... Going to ZzZzZzZ (yawnz)

My new hello kitty phone!!

2009-06-30T15:47:00.000-07:00

The back view

The front view!

Tada.........

Muahaha!! .......I m so happy today! Haven being updating for quite some time ......

Got a gift from my friend!! Guess wad? A hello kitty head handphone .... Its so sweet and girlish!!

My new toy to play with now .... hee hee ! When i collect my lappy back will upload more clearer pics.........Njoy!!

HELLO KITTY HEAD HANDPHONE

2.0'' 1 cm pure touch-screen

1.3 megapixel camera (with flash)

MP3/Mp4 player and download

Bluetooth

MMS,GPRS

E-map(for GPS)

Web Camera

Built-in multiple languages

Insomnia !!

2009-06-23T14:43:00.000-07:00

The 10 parking summons that's under installment!

Haven been updating for very long time, know y? Cos i still haven collect my lappy from sim lim square yet .... Sigh.. Either busy or lazy, Hopefully i can make my way down this weekend ..

Finally my court case for 6 parking summons are settled .. Yippy !! One problem solved !!

But 20 more summon to be paid by installment !! Am working super hard on it ... I know i need to pray for a miracle to happen ..... Thought im staying with my relative for the time being , despite helping myself with those crazy debts , im supporting quite a number of people in the family, at times i really worked my ass off just to provide to their needs ...... Sometimes i am frustrated , cause i gave up the things i want and even not paying my own debts , really way too much beyond my limits !! I need a break !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope my cousin will get a full time stable job, and also my little brother to get a full time stable job as well to help me lessen my burden !!

Im not losing faith , im giving myself more time to settle all the problems and also a test of my patience ! ..... Im planning to moved out !! Haha ... I think i would want to rent a room outside after all problems are settled!! If anyone got any good deals let me know tks!! I m independent enough to take care of myself ........

Had been attending CHC last few weekends and during last few services , i was so touched during last week's service, tears flowed down my cheeks !! 12 years back , i was with CHC before , for some reasons i left........ I than recently found my ex-church friend from facebook and ask her the timings for the services !! I went a few times and i felt so comfortable and relieved after very services despite of all the problems that im facing !!

Im trying to control my temper this days , in fact people who knows me well enough had never really see me lose my temper !! But if i really do, somebody is gonna be in trouble !! Haha.......Im still staying positive ....... I will endure for another 2 months .... Had MA LA steamboat on last sunday !! Very addictive , and i like it so much !! Going this sunday? Maybe? I still cant sleep and its oreadi 7.30am in the morning !! Help Pls!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just another day!!

2009-06-10T15:33:00.000-07:00

It's the second week of june , totally stressed up!! Know y? By next monday i had to settle the 6 parking summons which was way overdue .. Total of 6 summon which are overdue , Hdb actually wants me to pay $300 for each summon , So $300x 6= $1800............ Gosh!!!!! But i manage to see the Hdb officer , told the officer that i was'nt the one who committed the offence! And im simply not aware of it ... I managed to negotiate with the officer and lessen my fines to $840!!

The thing is , my sister's company... Used to have 2 vehicle , my sis driving one of it , So we decided to rent it out the other vehicle to my so call "friend" la , thanks to this guy who intro me his friend which i thought he was liable ... Too naive of me to believe them also , at the point of time we had no choice cos i was re-taking my license and we din't want to leave the car at the office carpark without driving and paying monthly installment of $1050. So this guy who was introduced by my so call ''friend'' rented the car , and within a month , he has got 3 parking summons ...., Less than a month , he was caught with the car doing illegal business !!

I know im in a deep shit ...... Till now , no news about it!!

And why im paying the summons is cos my name was also registered in my sis 's company!!

The computer randomly pick any of the co-owner of the company as the vehicle was registered under the company's name.. So i was the Lucky one la..haha..

And now im responsible for the summons !!

I learn from my mistakes , trusted the wrong person .. I can only blame myself ..........

I truly regretted ...........

I hope i will go thru this.....

Happy!

2009-06-04T12:36:00.000-07:00

My Ticket!! Taken from my phone!!

Hey Hey ....Went to PCD's concert this evening !!!! Woo hoo!! Had So much fun with the gals , jolin, stacie and company !!! Took lots of pictures and videos !!! Waiting for my lap top to be repaired and i can upload all the fotos and videos from my camera !! By the way PCD crews should have 5 gals like Nicole Scherzinger the lead singer , and her voice was really powerful, followed by Camit Bachar, Kimberly Wyatt , Ashley Roberts, and Jessica Sutta which i like most ...... But she wasn't here tonight due to leg injures..SO sad!! But one of the crew Kaya Jones left the group after recording and appearing in the ''Sway"" music video.. So, tonight , only nicole , ashley, kimberly and carmit perform... Everyone was enjoying and grooving along the way and even the staffs working there were enjoying the performance !! Nice!!

PCD rocks the entire stadium!! Wow...... Would love to see them again , but with the big projector screens cos tonight they din't put up any and i was'nt sitting in the front deck neither at the standing area, din't really see them up close!! Still, i enjoyed the whole performance !!

After the concert , went chilling out with the gals and supper ...

Finally , home , showered , Tired ...... Going to ZzZzZz.....

Update soon!!!! Ta Ta!!!

2009-06-01T14:00:00.000-07:00

Natasha Bedingfied!!

Am back again.. oya ! haven got my lap top back yet .. , Send for repair till now and i guess it's oreadi 1 week!! Not a single phone call from the guy who repair my lappy ! ! Arrugh! Maybe i should call them tomorrow to check on it !! Thanks to my lovely cousin that she allow me to use her lap top ....... Think i make alot of typo errors on my previous post .... Soooorry!! You guys must be wandering what am i trying to say ? .. Yesterday night , i was initially quite tired , while i was blogging , maybe i dint really go through wad i type , just not in the mood cos you all know when someone loses in gambling , tends to feel angry la, frustrated la, ..... but for me is just a game , although i dint win , just bad mood and i was tired .. Had added new songs for my blog and came to realized my previous post , I was quite shock when i read it myself , somehow it might confuse you all .. Somehow i think my previous post was funny !! Know y? I was tired +lazy to check what i type! Somehow some paragraph don't link ,and itz like jumpin story to story !.. Arrrrrrugh ! I din't wan to delete it away , SO .. anyway....... So it was the mahjong thingy that pisses me off and i was super duper tired .....

Im sinful today cos i smoke alot today!!! almost 20 sticks !! I m trying hard to cut down , hopefully STOP!! I had a reason today , y? Cos i drank alot today and the habit just came like that , Non stop lighting up .. Opps!!

Yippy!! 2 more days to PCDs concert !! So excited to see them!!

Check out the song i recently fell in love with , (SOULMATE) Singer : Natasha Bedingfield

Truly a meaning full song to me .........

Letting go everything!

2009-05-31T15:04:00.000-07:00

Haha! Grab from vic vic !!

Another weekend that i really had a relaxing day!!!! Went steamboat with my aunt and cousins , my brother and his girlfriend, everyone was having a tremendous time , enjoying dinner and chatting along the way. After that went home to see my doggies , and my friend suggest mahjong .... Last week i think i won $100 ! yeh! But tonite i lost $136....Arrugh!!!! So sad!!!! there goes my one show pay!! sob sobz..... Just not my luck la , not in the mood but having pms !!! No moral....

Alawyz believe we need 70% luck and 30% skills ..... So tonite i think my skills was 7 0% and luck was 30 %. How sad! i totally agree mahjong is all about luck!! Just not my day !! anyway i had fun , although during some of the games , my cards were super big , but sure got players end my game with one tie ..... Was quite frustrated in the beginning , the place was so hot , close to sweating while playing .... This week spends alot , pocket a big big hole , 1. paid house utility bills $450, gave aunt $200, steamboat ard $12o and mahjong $136...... sigh..

Coming up bills need to pay, fines $860, my laptop repair $180 , my facial and alot more ....

Went lunar wif victoria and a few friends , saw alot old friends , but too lazy to say hi ..

Went movie with - - - - on thursday if im not wrong , was quite happy to see him , but felt kinda strange ,maybe have seen each other for quite some time and don't know what to say to each other .... I believed we drift apart ... I just want things to be natural and dont wana hope for anything anymore , I m learning to let go bit by bit, In fact im happier, wont wana expect so much from a person!! I double confirm he has someone else , and im happy for him !!! Dont wana think so much le.. focus on my goals now!!! Learn to appreciate people , those who dosen't , can simply just put it aside!!! Am bringing my confidence back!! And yes i will!!!!!!!

SUnday!

2009-05-24T13:31:00.000-07:00

Finally sunday! It's a day i would wan to rest at home , watch t.v. play mahjong la.. went bugis village in the evening and got myself some dresses, new lashes and many more Yippy! Shopping is also a way to make a person happy! .... O ya!... already send my lappy for repair!! Cost $180 . SObz...My pocket got a big hole ! Hopefully it works , the person will only let me know by tomolo whether can it be repair or not? Wad de? Quote me 180 yet will have to confirm with me whether can repair or not. Weird !!! Plssss dont chop my head la... Got a feeling they are gona cal me tomolo and say (''Miss , your bla bla bla need to be replace with a new one and it cost like few hundreds '') than i think i will really cry!

The weather is super duper hot these days , cold shower only lasts for few hours .. Arrrugh!!!

Feel like getting a technician to come over my aunt's place to fix the bloody Air-con .....It leads to sleepless nights , even after bathe, lying in bed, tossing left and right also no use. Maybe looking for air cooler! I think it helps a little?

Too humid and hot ... Am going to shower again !!! tata

2009-05-21T13:31:00.001-07:00

Hey Hey... My cousin has got her new lappy macbook !!! Was happy for her la , brand new macbook for her , but mine still haven go get it repair yet.., will make a trip to sim lim this weekend again ... Sigh..... Feeling lost when my lappy is not working, i think i should just send it for repair ... hopefully by next week .. yup! Tons of pictures to be uploaded ........ Am saving up for certain things , short trip la, some company issue fine's la, and alot more... will update again soon!! Going to zZzZz....... Nitz!

Depressed!

2009-05-13T10:22:00.000-07:00

Finally here.. Am super duper depressed about my macbook !! Just like any other nights , after work, back home, tired , usually i would go online first , on some music , check mails and stuff before i go for shower, some how last week one of the nites i came back and realized am having problems to on my lappy.... I knew my temper was gonna explode anytime .

Just to make it short , firstly, im alwayz either out at work or sleeping , so i hardly see my notebook for more than 10 mins sometimes each day, and im kind enough to let these "few people"(I don't wish to mention any names) where i lived with them to go online with my lappy...Sometimes thier even fighting for it, who used longer la, bla bla bla and it pissed me off at times ! And i did told them to take good care and also let my note book rest after using for few hours cos there was so many people who wants to go online and im the only person who owns a workable notebook at home. When i questioned them , know wad they reply? User no 1 said: "Erm , im not sure , i remember switching it off before i go to sleep, User no 2 said: I think last person to used was user 3 ." And the story goes on and on , My tears juz flowed down my cheeks , and in my heart i know THAT"S IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUPER ANGRY !!! Upset at the same time cos all the school's project and also my freelance project softcopy i did the last time gone ! ! I am super depressed about it , my efforts, hobbies , soft copy of all graphics work i did last time , photos , songs all gone !!! Few weeks before my laptop was still in working condition, i don't know which user tried to go online , log in msn and somehow accidentally changed my msn settings or somthing that i could'nt go online ....I was quite pissed off already at that time , cos they told me : ''No! I think someone hacked your password ''. I was like WAD? Huh? ...

I locked myself in the room and cried non-stop for 2 days , can you all imagine ? All they said was :" Cumon , its juz a lap top and just go get it fixed la", no point being angry or upset about it!(In my heart i really really feel like punching them one by one on the face!! ) None of them apologised to me and take it as nothing happen? Geezssssss... Going mad!!!!!

All my hardwork, memories , gone ............. Can anyone understand ? Especially those designs's students, projects that you had done and stuff? .. Now i know no point blaming them cos i give them the permission to use my lappy when im not around!

I am so upset everytime i saw my laptop lying at one corner ! Like dead!!!... Still asking around anyone who knew hows to fixed it before i bring it to sim lim square and get my head chopped there !! keke....Wanted to blog so much in mother's day!! I Missed my mum, got so much to tell her , though she's not with me anymore, went to pay respects to her at bright hill temple, in my heart i just want to tell her how much i really really missed her and the problems im facing cos i used to talked to mum alot no matter it's good news or bad news , and she will give me advises or whenever i cant decide wad to do ,she was the one who decide ..So when i closed my eyes, memories of the previous years mothers's day celebration were in my mind !! 2008? ,2007? an goes on......... Remembering 2008 's mother's day, celebrating with her , thats was the toughest time for me as she was going through chemo-therapy .. Will upload her happily smiling pictures when my laptop is fixed.

Lastly, why im able to blog now was because my brother brought his girlfriend's laptop home to play pc games and i told him i want to go online, brought 2 puppies for vacination jab just now , woke up in the afternoon went to HDB hub toa payoh to settle some parking summons that has'nt been paid for long long time !! More amazing things is gonna happen , will tell you people in my next post out ! By the way i realized something is wrong with my blogskin's templete's or settings , think the ads thingy blocking some parts of my postout !! Trying to figure it out , am
will get it fixed soon!! Sorry people!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will stay strong, but if i pulled through this shit i believe it makes me a even stronger person and also the reason to live on !!

Friday the 13th!

2009-04-29T16:01:00.000-07:00

Scary movie posters!!

American horror movie written by Damian Shannon and Mark swift.. A thriller movie that i would love to watch... Some scenes were quite shocking though, Am just wandering is Jason Voorhees a creature? he dosen't seems to feel any pain when got beaten up ?.. Amazing !!!! Those who haven watch , can watch online too.. En joy!!

Am busy with working these days , suffering from big time gastric pain again , and im on medication now .. sobz... Hope i will get well soon... Seen doctor last sat , took med and meals but it still hurts .. Got to rest now, update soon ... nite nite...

Juicy Couture , Babyphat

2009-04-26T16:33:00.000-07:00

This was a gift from angel last year when she went germany , love the scent, nice.......(victoria secret miniature perfume)

Baby phat! SImply Love the chain!!

Like grey and pink!!......

The pink and purple , got this last year!!!!

Being busy last whole week, but i was happy, work was tiring ,but i know itz over ! Yippie !!! Sunday was always a day i would wana stay home and relax , watching t.v and doing my own stuff.. O well , my aunt bathe all our doggies today , Can you imagine how tiring it can be?

Im amazed!!!! Followed by a good friend of mine came by my place to picked up his Cd pouch , a friend of mine that i haven seen him for donkey years and i was so glad he came , we din really talk much cos he was rushing off , but we promised to catch up soon ! I am having problems sleeping early again, Arrrugh!!!!! Super frustrated ! This week might be another busy with for me again , i will try not to drink too much as im not feeling too well , so just wan to work , end early and head home sleep!!

Muhahaha!!! Went bugis village on thursday with candy and a friend of mine, and yes , passed by the shop whereby i would stop and glance for a moment , saw some of the bags that are super nice ...Muhahaha! I had got new bags again!!! Excitedly, i took pictures of it when im home ! ! Sweet and girlie......Am loving it !

2009-04-24T04:23:00.003-07:00

Snap 1!

Candy!

Super bad hair day!! Our client benjamin !!

Noelle and me!!!

The team !!!

Finally having some quiet time for myself ... This whole week was quite hectic for me , 3 days day time event in a row !! Sweat! Having difficulties sleeping early yet had to wake up so early .. But at least i tried.. Was blur on the first day as i don't even know wad product i will be promoting , So after a short briefing , i tried to understand as much as i can, and my day begins ... So it's for Sea Asia exhibition ! Mostly for people who are in the shipping industry! So we are promoting this product for removing the rust from the ship deck or any areas where is rusty .. Brimming with excitement and also having so much fun working with the gals , moving around booth to booth, quite an easy job just that all our legs were aching cos we were wearing high heel boots !

Someone had made me super duper angry and upset for this week , Dun wan to mention any further as im super tired to even think about it .. Arrugh!! Important now is to planned ahead and settling all my problems !!! Got to go prepare for work now............

2009-04-17T15:20:00.000-07:00

Muahaha ! when i was 20 years old !!!

With vic .. 2007?

2006!

I think this is 2006 or 2007?

And that's happy me!!!

This one damn funny!!

Some memories i will never forget!!

Silly posies !!!!

2008!

Partying days.....keke!!!

Some memories that i realli miss losta!! Candy!!!!

hei hei.., Its weekend again, after work, back home ... had shower and also do some cleaning here and there , Arrugh!! Totally worn out ... Recently went to settle some important issue that has been bothering me, half way thru and hoping im can get over it as soon as i can .. moody these days, tired.. don't feel like explaining too much also... Am having problems logging in my msn .. Somebody actually hacked my hotmail password? I hope not .. , wont be online for the time being .. So Plsss my dear friends , im not missing in action , will try to get it fixed a.s.a.p!! Time to go to bed....ZzzZzZzzz........

Memories!

2009-04-13T04:36:00.000-07:00

They look so sad!!!!!

And now left blackie and chocolate!!

Last few shots of spots!!

Spots , He left us yesterday , adopted by my friend am pretty upset about it!

chocolate sleeping soundly

My little prince Blackie!!

First is blackie, chocolate and spots!!

Had been really busy last week , puppies growing bigger day by day... tons of fotos to upload .. Haven been going out lately, not in the mood to party, or go anywhere... Juz feel like staying home , keep myself isolated !! Muhahah ! Had upload another video from jolin , previously the one i uploaded got removed by the user , really like this song, ...

Updates and updates !!!

2009-04-06T02:43:00.000-07:00

At Boiler!!!

Before heading to another place??

On yan's Birthday!!! Judy an me!!

So nice to cuddle blackie , he looks like a mini toy bear to me!!!

I guess im gonna be really really upset if his gone!!

Pictures with blackie!

Love this hello kitty mahjong tiles!!! Super duper cute !!! Saw it online and wandering

anywhere in singapore selling ??

Still having lots of photos to upload , due to picture size too large, pictures took longer time to load an im getting impatient lo!!! Last week , feeling gloomy bout everything , sigh!! Having been sleeping well, eating well , so i guess thats y im also feeling down , Last whole week were a little busy for me , my mums birthday on the 26th march, follow by Qing Ming Festival .... Although i don't really understand wad the occasion and how should i ?, Lucky my auntie guide me a little here and there... Hasn't been partying for quite some time, last was yan's birthday at boiler!!! Wandering why?, Had been watching movies online and i find it rather addictive !!! No mood for drinking since i just recovered from gastric pain weeks ago!! Now am trying not to skip meals , dont wan to have another nightmare again !!!!
xx

Muhaha! Got jolin's ,latest album, find the song lyrics quite meaningful!!!, loving it! Njoy!!

2009-04-03T14:51:00.000-07:00

Feeling so down out of sudden!! .. Lower than a pit hole !! haha...... Time for a getaway ... to bangkok!!! Yeah!!! Had been quite some time since i last relax!! Seems like everyone is so busy with their life , no matter attached or single..

Just another weekend for me , after work, sitting down alone in the living room and thinking alot... Am starting to miss my mum la, my friends la , and the puppies ... One of them is sold !!!!!! Sobz sobz..!!! Din know seeing them grow up and letting them go was so painful! Time really really flew and their oreadi close to 8weeks !!!! I can say it was not easy to take care of the little puppies like they were your babies!! Geszzzzz ! Am starting to get emotional ... time to go to bed!!!!!! ZzZzzzzzz..........

2009-03-30T15:06:00.000-07:00

The 3 little puppies when their just born!!!

All the same poise!

The 3 puppies together with their daddy!!

blackie's close to 2 months old!!

Hey Hey!!! back again to update..., past week days still feeling unwell though, was suffering from serious gastric pain in the tummy !! Seen doctor 2 times , now better !! i hope it wont come back , lost interesting things wana post here .......... Enjoy !!!

2009-03-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

love the dress !

Yea! Am feeling so much better now .. No more pains, can jump up and down again ... Weather has been quite bad these days , bet everyone feeling sick , Am feeling moody !!! Cant focus , not thinking positive , so much things that are kept in my heart that i can never forget or let go... Yesterday did a show with sherry, becky and jomantha, we were so tired .... Am uploading new fotos ... muahahah!!!

New Blogskins!!

2009-03-23T16:32:00.000-07:00

Woo Hoo !! Had changed my blogskin as the previous one was quite depressing though, still working on it , , Am feeling much much better now , cant imagine last weekend i was suffering, now still got slight pain which comes and goes ,and my medicines are running out , I might need to go back to the doctor again . Aaruugh!! ,Got a few buyers for my puppies , can't bare to let them go, Sob Sobz... Will see how it goes , got lots of planning to do, and i need to rest now.... update soon!!!

Suffering big time!!!!

2009-03-20T23:56:00.000-07:00

Does anyone suffer from gastric/acid reflux?

For me, i've haven being well for the past 1 week , till yesterday the pain was unbearable that i cant even stand or walk yet i had to work last night !! When i reach home , too tired an wanted to rest so much , had pain killers , but the pain din go away, i almost cried !!Finally this morning i went to see a doctor. My doctor diagnosed me as gastric. My signs were stomach bloating, nauseous , pain in upper stomach, no energy to eat or walk. And it dosen't go away after eating well and my medicines . I get nauseous now and than , but usually it goes away after awhile . Doctor had prescribe me some medicines , advise me not to skip meals , he even show me pictures from his phone how serious it could be, some picture from other patients got serious gastric and needed a surgery leaving an ugly scar on the stomach!! Had taken my medicines and now resting ... I think i really need to rest !!!

It's yuki and justin's big day, ceremony will be at Aranda country club , and i guess i cant make it .. Would personally wana wish this pair of lovely birds all the best, may them have a blissful marriage !!

Blackie!!!

2009-03-13T14:49:00.000-07:00

Blackie!!

The fierce look!!!

They no longer look like a cow ...hee !!

Learning to walk step by step!!!

The look reminds me of his daddy!!!

Blackie is my love!!!

Am tired after work and home... Took lotsa pics of my puppies , seriously cuteeeeeee!!!!!

Yawnz.........

2009-03-09T14:52:00.000-07:00

Feeling cold these few days , Was having sore throat the pass few days , feeling damn uncomfortable and now coughing , Coughing quite badly and i think i need to rest , going to see a doctor soon , of all sickness , i hate coughing .., cos i can cough like non-stop and losing my voice !!! Met up with karen , candy and joanna for drinks last night , as usual , talking and planning when to meet up for drinking again !! Muhahah! I was quite high , suffered big time !!! I seriously think i need to get some liver pills , does anyone know any particular brands thats good ? Thinking of getting one , and wanting to go for a massage or something , no idea where to?

Guess passed 2 weeks had been drinking like nobody's business , How am i feeling now ? sickly though... Had understand facts in life and learn to cherish wad each individual person has in them , living a life with no regrets, cos thats wad god gave us.. So learn from mistakes , accept all challenges in life with faith , Everyone had been complaining about the year 2009 saying itz a bad year for everyone , recession's fault ? Everyone is so busy fighting for wad they want in life n moving towards their goals !

Lastly , my puppies are growing super duper fast , and we cant take care of them when they are another month older .. Gonna put them up for sale!!! Will bring them or a vaccination soon when they are able to walk a little , cant bare to but i know i dont have any more choices , hopefully the new owner will cherish these little lives , adore them, see them grow bigger and bigger day by day !! Sorry to friends that sometimes cal or sms me and i dint pick up or dint reply , it was either me busy at work or sleeping , my apologies , promise to catch up soon!!!!!

Nitz............

Fotos of puppies !

2009-03-07T15:58:00.000-08:00

Blackie's side View!!!

Absolutely adorable!!

My Love !!!!

We name her chocolate!!!

Looking sweet ??

The puppies has finally open their eyes!! So hard to take their pics .. Was tipsy after working on friday night and as usual , things went missing all the time when tipsy , am i careless or ? Had being very tired lately , attending birthday party ,parties and more parties ? Scary !!! Am having sore throat due to heavy drinking and smoking !!! Geezss! Am trying hard to cut down smoking, I miss having steamboat lately , and there is so much things i wana do !!!!!!!!!! Am tired, totally worn out!!

It will be a better day tomorrow!!!!!

Nitz...............

Parties.......

2009-03-05T12:48:00.000-08:00

Me and SHi met up for dinner and we both lovess pizza !!

someone i missed being with ...Shi SHi !!!!!

Jackie calling the shots!!!!

Funny faces but i look drunk!! sobz...

The rock queenz.......!

Cheers xiao yan !!!!!

Love you ........!!1

We party like a rock Star.........!!!!!

Dancing Queen Judyvein...........Yea!!

But i guess im abit tipsy !!!

Here comes steffi, jolene and ning , we are still sober.....

Cash, samantha and steffi.......

woo hoo !

Sherry ,steffi

Yippy!!

2009-03-02T13:30:00.000-08:00

Last week wasn't really a good week for me though , keep losing things ..., sigh.. Having sore throat , all the drinking and smoking , know itz bad for health , will try to cut down ... Time really files , Had been busy with my lovely puppies , seeing them growing bigger and bigger day by day , amazing and funny.. was having super terrible cramps these few days , cant really walk , the was feeling terrible , i cant describe .. used to take evening primrose oil , it helps but i had already stop taking it .. Sat went to one of my old friends birthday party , met up with some old friends , its good to see them again than went to zouk , drank quite a lot , haha.. But i had fun , moving from phuture than zouk and back to phuture , guess wad ? i drank that killer drink again ,AK47 though i only drank half , still i was super duper high ! As usual , i lost my keys again !!

Sunday stayed at home the whole day , tired , hangover with bad cramps .. lying down whole day watching t.v.. Got so much things to blog but i m feeling tired and sleepy.. Yawnzzzz....

Unlucky Day!!!

2009-02-26T14:07:00.000-08:00

Steffi....

Triplets sleeping postures!!

Can you tell which is bigger?

No idea wad they trying to do Lolx!!!

Thats blackie sleeping soundly!!

Was tipsy the other night after work , took a cab to meet my friends , when i came off from cab, without checking my cash and stuff, realized i actually dropped all my cash , though not much, but at least can buy me like 7 packs of cigarettes lor !!!!!! Bloody Hell!! $#%#$!!!! Damn pissed!!!Arrrugh!! Just unlucky , After the meet up sessions with friends and i went home , cant find my stupid shoe bag, it contains my working black boots !!!!! The one with flat heel with pink shoe laces !!!! After searching at friends place, still cant find and im really tired and tipsy lor ! heart pain!! Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me . Will try to load all the fotos of my little puppies , it's super funny !!! CHeck out their sleeping postures ...

Busy and Lazy!!!

2009-02-23T14:16:00.000-08:00

Happy Happy!!!!!!!

Lovynn ........Met her at barnone !! Simply hot!!

After some drinks and we started to!!!!!

At barnone and excited to get drinks and more drinks !!!

My eye bags !!! Gosh!!!!!!!!!!!

Wasn't prepare to party, not much make up !! i wan my fake lashes on!!

Finally back!........I know itz more than a week and i neglected my blog... Sorry!! ... Don't even got time to see doctor , am sick , guess too much of drinking , partying and sleeping really late ...., old habit coming back , as usual , insomnia , was having so much fun with interesting friends around me , karen la, shanna la, candy la , rachel la , Aiya... too many to mention , basically the bunch o f party animals .. thats so many pics for me to upload and where did i stop ? Errrrmmm.. Had being working late nights and realized im old..... Geezzsss , cant drink that much like i used to be , tired easily , one night of partying with them requires me a 3 days rest , haha..... Still waiting for reply of this friend who wants me to work for him , if not , might consider going back to studies , back to graphics world ??? Was half way through , but mum was really sick and i had to stop .... To think of it was quite wasted actually but im not disheartened .. Never stop my passion for doing or achieving my goals !! Thank god for SOoooo many goods friends thats with me whether its ups or downs , always encourage me , understanding is very important in a friendship and i truly believe ..... I miss watching movies , fish prawning la, bbq and cant wait to go on a holis with these group of party animals!!! Yea! arranging one right !! Kinda sick of dancing and selling those stupid shots , wana brush up my DJ skills , for a change , absolutely fun !!!, Cos i cant live without music and i wana share my knowledge of music to all the people around me!!! More pics of my puppies on my next post , damn super funny and amazing they are growing alot bigger after one week !! Yawnz...... am sleepy after the effects of sleeping pills !! Gonna go ZzZzZzzzzzz.......... nite nite!!!

My new born puppies on V day!!

2009-02-15T03:42:00.000-08:00

the dark brown one is a felmale, 2 others are male

A size of an hamster!! Cuuuuute!!

Muhaha ! fatherly love!!

The triplets !!

The 3 puppies !!

My valentine's day present!!

absolutely adorable and fragile !!

Geszzzzzzz!! Little baby!!

Yes!! Its Valentine's day yesterday..... Its just another day whereby all the girls in town were carrying giant bouquet and more bouquet of flowers with their love ones .. This year's V day was equally special and a memorable one... Woke up late in the afternoon tired from the previous night of working and bla bla bla ... , As usual , my babies will wiggle their tail when i call them !!

Somehow i felt something was not really right for COCO' my felmale dog'' , She seems breathless , laid at one corner , shivering , cant walk at all and she looks terribly sick !!....., me and my cousins were quite panic and decided to bring her to the vet !! Called one of my friend to drove us there , and trust me , We were lucky cos all vet clinics closes early during the weekends , especially saturday!! I managed to search the nearest vet at our area which is at UPPER SERANGOON ROAD, just right after the famous '' Ponggol Nasi Lemak" , thank god their operating till 8pm.., we manage to get there in time , in my heart i was so died worried cos she seems like she was going to die any later .., i kept asking the reception how long will we have to wait till our turn, cos she was in quite a bad shape ...

After 15mins , finally the vet brought my baby CoCo in .. She was given X-trays , cos vet suspects she was pregnant, and know wad? She was actually pregnant with 3 puppies .. Gosh..... Was too careless to even realized that , thinking hard when was the actual date CoCo and baby last mate...

I was quite lost cos vet told me CoCo's condition was quite bad due to her size was quite tiny and she was unable to perform a natural birth and therefore causes her discomforts and breathless.. The vet said they have to do a Cesarean on her a.s.a.p!!!!

Without 2nd thoughts , we sign the papers and the whole operation causes 1k!!!! That was my valentine's days present , a very expensive one ..... Been so busy and tired that my fotos that need to be uploaded are piling up...... more pics will be up SOoooooN... Njoy!!!

Simply tired!

2009-02-09T00:38:00.000-08:00

So Crowded at phuture that we Can Hardly walk!!

Always never failed to cam-whore in the ladies!!

Last friday's party at Zouk!!

Feeling jaded ....... Kinda lost my sense of direction , im going insane!!! Drowning myself with parties and more parties ...... Posted in my facebook "STEPHANIE IS TIRED " , My close friends were so smart that they knew i was mentally tired ..... Facing some difficulties in life and i think i will put through... Always tell myself that i wanted to wake up every single day smiling , think positive!!! During the CNY spring Cleaning , took out my guitar that was left in the store room for damn damn long time , It was my 21th birthday present !! Muhahah! after all the shifting here and there , i had lost all the cords..... Damn it !! I wana visit arab st , wana get crystals and get my guitar Pimp...... Will post out more nice pics sooN !!

Happy happy!

2009-02-05T00:32:00.000-08:00

pink roses!!

baby and coco's clothes!

Danger!! Beware!

Emo coco!

When the 2 dogs got together!!

Baby Looks macho in the top!! Hu Hu!

Coco has her new dress...! Muhahaha..

Here comes the birthday boy !

cam whoring...

stars for the night Cash and advin...

Happy birthday Advin!

Yesterday went cash's birthday party at dblo... Had so much fun though.. took lots of silly photos, Everyone having so much fun though, think i drank alot yesterday than my birthday... Party ends ard 5, am glad everyone was happy!!

Not forgetting my babies at home , took fotos of them , juz too adorable , love them very much , hee hee .... Super tired after uploading all the photos to my com... night..

Gifts for my babies.......

2009-02-04T01:57:00.000-08:00

Muahaha... Had always wanted to get some nice clothes for the babies at home.... Went to the pet shop the other day , wanted to get doggie's dried food and some essentials as well , Busy slogging day by day , Whahaha, Had been wanting to sing so badly these days.... ARugh!! Where all the kakis go?????? Got problems loading the pics again ... will update soon again..........

My ThougHts!!!

2009-01-31T01:40:00.000-08:00

Stef,vic,Lyn

After knowing each other for many years, our first pic...

I like the jacket ....nice......

Partying till dusk.........

You all know girls always refused to faced the fact and also face the reality , even though they know or felt some things are just not right !! ............. True enough , and living in the darkness of their own .., Recently had been to parties after one another, receiving news unwanted and unexpectedly... Hearing too much , and also seen too much over the years ........ Too tedious for me to handle ....... Had said , explained and expressed how i really felt.. I need a long break .......................... Had loaded some songs had i will always never get sick hearing it again and again .....Njoy!!

Happy Chinese new year !!

2009-01-28T14:17:00.000-08:00

Advertorial!! Japanese Best seller demure fruity perfume !! Selling at $40.00/nett Not selling in singapore , girls simply crazy over it .. contact me if interested !!

Cam whore!!!

Chinese new year!!

ok..im the shortest!!

A kiss for you !!

Confirm drunk...... yesh!!!

The cherish moments with friends ...... a plenty of love,joy, and nonsense.... After all , Chinese new year , popping down bottles and bottles of wine till i could hardly open my eyes ...hee hee ! Was quite bored at home on the eve of chinese new year , after that came along house party with friends who are hard core alcoholics ...damn... they rule the world ....... But for tonite, at joanna's birthday party.. hope she enjoys herself and so am i..... self declared high always .....hahaha Living life to the fullest no matter its ups or down...... Wan ..a major change in my mood and feelings ....Im glad and cherish wad i have now ..... Happy new year and stay funky !!!

Tired!!

2009-01-22T23:17:00.000-08:00

Hi ..... Was having problems with my laptop 2 days ago..., SOmeone in the house used my laptop and input the wrong passwords... Arrrugh!! Seriously angry.. seeing everyone so busy with the CNY preparations ...

This year C.N Y , felt alot difference cos mum is not with me .... Every single year when she was around , always makes me had the feeling that i need to buy this and that , Do this and not do that.. haha. So 2009 was truly a very different feeling for me ... had been busy working nights and planning the path ahead me ... Got to get things moving and at the same time , wana wish all my friends a happy new year 2009 !! Gong Xi Fa Cai ! Ho Ho Ho! ......

totally worn out!!

2009-01-18T12:06:00.000-08:00

One of my photoshop art work!!

Last week was quite a hectic week for me , sleepless night for me .. Getting sick and tired abt everything .. Felt that no matter wad i do is always not good enough .. Should i live a life like this ? recently quite troubled over some matters , My close friends should jolly well know , For a moment i really felt there was hope , another moment , somehow disappear and brought me back to where i was..Was i too sensitive or the other party insensitive enough .. Somehow i was happy on last friday ...,thought just a short period of time but im really happy .... felt like taking a step back .. maybe i should .. Juz simply afraid wad will happen next .. I can only wait .. if its a game that someone challenge me .... Im missing someone badly ............Super bad , knowing he is alwayz busy at work and stuff... I can only wait ...i will give myself another 2 weeks.. if it dosent work out than i should know how to react.... tonight i din manage to see him but still ....IT hurts ............

Disappointment!!

2009-01-15T14:14:00.000-08:00

Was looking forward so much to meeting derrick goh last night and it din't out to be a fruitful one.... He intro all his co -workers .. Met all the top dealers and brokers !! Was it so complicated to be in this industry.. The meeting took place at Boat quay cyclone !! When i was there , derrick that guy that wanted to into the job to me , was there, with another 2 co-workers .. 15mins lata, another group came like four or five, all brokers . . My hands began to tremble..... Sitting down there making me so uneasy , cos they were all talking about work and i had got no topics to throw in !! Pathetic me!!! .. Not long after they started to play 5-10 ... derrick asked me to try , although i can play but i remained humble and resist, in the end i said ok, loser will have a sip .. They insist of at least half a glass, wtf? .. I can say they were very good , Im not bad either since all about reading each other's mind !!.

Fine.. This time i was really really angry and played the game....Itz was absolutely a tough fight.....

and my opponent was a guy.... He din give me any chance neither do i!... I din't even got the chance to light my cigarette, they just continued . Scary !!.... ... Anyway, i got too much to COMPLAIN..... I KNow .. So F it.......

I din't get the answers i wanted and i was pissed by this people ... What the hell is wrong with me ? Just a simple meeting session can get me super pissed and drank that much...

Felt Sooooo emotional,disappointed, useless .... .........

Angry!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-13T14:58:00.000-08:00

That night at df.. Im emotionally confounded......i use to be like somehow consistent juggling my day time job and night, i used to be focus !And tonite ,,, went to df with my friend and his so call co-workers, My friend was a guy...we went in a group like 3 business women, well dress , well behaved and stuff ,,, Could;nt believe this! ..How it started? ...LOOK we were all drinking together happy than my friend wants to used the rest room .. while h e went , bloody hell the felmale friends wants my friend to drink a glass of undrinkable glass mixed with their shit ,,, Gross....i saw everything and i switch my glass with my friend while he walk back... True enough, the Beng took the glass and pass it to him ,, knowing he cant drink anymore ... the beng insisted,,,wad was their motive ?...... This people just simply childish....... Just totally pissed and juz less than 5 mins i would challenge them to drink since they want me drink s o much...I bet she wont...In the end i was quite high ... my friend was worst .. Nid to send him hme to his room and he had to wake up in the morning ..... Just pisses abt this heartless brainless people...Sigh..........cant be bothered..... Popping my sleeping pills .. Gd night.......

Happy!

2009-01-12T13:50:00.000-08:00

BBq prawns !!

Yea! after so long .. went prawning again .. Was super duper happy when i caught those prawns .. Its tuesday , i was expecting an important call, must be patient .. .. Anyway im meeting shanna tomolo at bugis at 6.15pm should i go ? Casting for mild seven .. Went to bugis for dinner last night than head home , nothing to do also, boring ! .. Will be waking up early tomorrow to cook.. Heee hee.. ! Curry chicken!! nothing else but curry chicken.. Down with a flu and its so uncomfortable .. I hope tomolo will be a better day for me and everyone !! Cheers...................

Lazy sunday!!

2009-01-11T13:17:00.000-08:00

Today ... feeling kinda lazy....slept for 10 hours but still, haha.. ! Promise to replace shanna.. ha ! In the end i went to work .. As usual... with demanding customers , drank alot alot.. But at least i know tonite wont be a wasted night for me .. Some little things happen that brighten up my day... Am i still naive or im really ..... .... Truly im waiting for miracles to happen ... How can i convince myself ? i really dont know.. Am truly afraid more than i wanted ... Friends who know me should be able to understand wad shit i had got myself into ... Im quite tipsy now while bloggging , ...Hopefully there wont be too many typo errors !! Tomorrow will be a better day i hope... After all the unhappiness .. i guess i should moved on with my life.. Overall....Im Super happy ................Nite.......!

Boring Sat........

2009-01-10T03:53:00.000-08:00

Silly pics .....

Had alot of drinks last night .. Went to a pub i thought i will never go.. Feeling abit sick, funny ,

on a sat night thinking whether to stay home or out ... Super boring , moody , lazy... Wanted to catch a show , kept having second thoughts .... should i or not? ?

Everything is changing!

2009-01-09T02:17:00.000-08:00

X'mas present from a friend!! Cool......

Chilling out on a monday Bluessss.......

the alcoholics !!

Bernard and steffi!!

Guess where were we???

Come to think of it , everyone is busy with their life , struggling here and there, regardless whether its about life , family , or love? Beginning of the year is a good start for everyone !! I doubt so. Few days ago while working, met a stranger .. He is in his 50s , seems experience in everything, he was a ceo from some company ! .. Haven even introduce myself and he began his fortune telling . haha!! Maybe he could tell from my expressions . We began to chit chat for awhile , he mention about my stubbornness, he could tell i was sick and tired of everything ..My palms beginning to turn sweaty!! He mention i came from a single parent's family , i told him thats maybe too common now days , but the main point that he said to me was " thats alot of things you cant let go '', i kept quiet just to let him finish.., but in my heart i was thinking maybe , he said especially my past ex!! Im like wad the h...? My partner was getting impatient while me talking to him , He offered me a job !! I ask if me and my partner can call him for the position ? He lectured me said , "Y MUZ YOU ALWAYS THINK ABOUT OTHERS BEFORE YOURSELF?" Than said he is asking me and not her !!, its a fate that we met that night , He ask me to consider than give him a call!! I was quite amazed by him cos i din't even introduced myself and he jolly well said things about me.. To believe or not , i myself not sure !! Times are bad now, pay are still so stagnant , Prices of things are going up!! Time to say to good bye to cigarettes .. Hopefully by this year! Got problems loading pics .. will update soon!! Cya!

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-05T01:23:00.000-08:00

Coco!!

Before party !!

The lesbian act!!

Shanna !! Stop it!!

Phuture!! Still sober!!

Talking to candy !!

I need a support!

Where was i looking!! Gosh!

Happy New Year!! Haven been blogging since ... Busy the last few weeks !! Finally Bid goodbye to 2008 !! Awaiting for a new beginning !! Had been drinking alot these days !! Admit im a much happier person now .. Having alot of thoughts , Had came to realized i had take things easily than before !! On new year day, Cant believe that i had a mahjong session that lasts for 15 hours !! itz was crazy!! Was kinda moody last weekend , mistakes that everyone were prone to !! Met up with some of the girls , told them how i feel after wad had happened .. totally out of my mind , how could i have ........ ...... ? Suddenly the feeling that i had before during last year came back!! Nightmare !! O pls ! stupid of me to trust people so easily !! Knowing wad will happen next .. Time to get my life back on track !! Yes !! i determined !!.. No more silly thoughts, foolish acts .. I know im strong!!

Christmas 2008!!

2008-12-29T03:20:00.000-08:00

Extremelyyyyyy Hotties!!

And who is that guy behind??

New haircut? Xia yan!!

All focusing at the camera except Rach!!!

Ning, sam,me!!

Wads with that tougue??

Our usual felmale model here !!

Look at that shinny Pants of judy's !!

After our x'mas dinner!!

More Tequila Shots!!

Camwhoring at party world shenton way!! keke!

Jackie, Judy!!

We went indochine after show !! trying to be sober !!

Look at my baby!! His so fat now!!

Dinner at breeks!! Potato skin!!

shiny loose power from majorca !

X'mas pressies ...

At dblo!

Had been very busy since x'mas!! Got tons of fotos waiting to be upload!! Finally x'mas over, Another hectic week !! New year eve is just around the corner!! Everyone is partying non-stop!!

Hasn't been feeling too well, too much alcohol plus insomnia , Gosh! cough mixture dosen't seems to help!! Arrrugh! Simply love my cannon power shot E1 camera, Never fail to snap where ever i go ...

2008!

2008-12-23T01:41:00.000-08:00

One of the art work i drawn !!

2008 coming to an end and i wan to review back what i had done ! I guess i have failed to achieve my targets plus leading a life totally not what was expected in the beginning of the year , where by targets and goals were set, but under some circumstances , plans changed.. In fact it had became an hectic year for me , through all the ups and downs and left me with all unhappy moments .. Left school for some reasons was maybe the wrong stepping stone and after july , everything just came crashing down till wad im now , admit i had lost all the passion i have towards my goals and wasted each and very single day or night staying at home or working at night without even want to think about anything !

Earlier this year had been to singapore general hospital for almost every single day , it was the period where by am trying to be by my mum's side fighting the terminal disease with her , hoping she will make it cos she was a strong women ... The doctors did their best after 2 major operations , fair enough , the cancerous cells in my mum were all removed !! Giving us hopes that she will recover slowly !, my mum was put in ICU ward till Normal observation ward which we all though it was a good sign.. The weight she lost was scary, from almost 60 kg and after all chemotherapy and operations left her only bones and skin .. She was bedded for 2 months , cant sit , stand , etc. we had to feed her.. During july , mums condition improved just that she has been lying in bed for too long thus her lower part of the body has lose all muscles and she got no energy to sit straight too.. We were relieved and still encourage her , telling her she has made it and its the final step where by she has to try her very best to regain her energy .. After 2 months of observation , doctors had told us my mums condition has improved and she was able to discharge and rest at home, me and my sis were in a mist of hiring a maid so that she can look after her if anyone of us not around.. Stressed!! Mum insisted to stay for another 2 weeks and said she try to stand and all that before discharging from sgh.

After these 2 weeks , doctors and nurses wanted to chase my mum out of hospital saying , she recovered , can be transfered to nursing home , cos she wasn't seeking anymore treatments from them , just the dressing for the operation wounds .. We had no choice but arrange her to a nursing home at joo chiat ( SERENE NURSING HOME) . Mum dosen't seem comfortable with the place there .. We told her to try rest and regain her energy back there. She was depending on a oxygen mask for breathing .. We bought her dvd players , drama movies to watched to keep her occupied .. She insisted of going back home or s.g.h , me and my sis din't know wad to do so all my aunties came down , talked to her , comfort her things like that !! She listened to them and cooled down for a moment , The night before she left us , my sis and her best friend was there , sis telling me , mum was normal, chit chatting happily with her best friend and nurses .. How did it happen??

I lost all confidence and weeped silently !! When a person is at their lowest , it could be even deeper in a pit hole !! I faced it ,

But that dosen't mean i had put everything to a stop !!! Totally jaded .... Had my new year resolutions made and more planning for the year 2009!! Those who might be giggling , or trouble maker in my life , sad to say i had bid good bye to you!! You can make your most effort or try your luck on me again , still i cant even be bothered with you!!! Friends who are with me all this while , knowing everyone has each others problems to meddle with , im glad and hope 2009 goes well for you !! we will continue to party our way to 2009!! Dump all bad memories , things that are not worth for and start a new year!!!

18/12/2008

2008-12-20T23:45:00.000-08:00

more presents from friends!!

DJ Matt from rebel!! Simply my idol!!

Unique flowers !! anyone know the name of this flower??

Im one year older !!

Finally mine!! canon power shot E 1 10 mp camera !!

Getting tipsy !!

Cheers!!

We party like a rock star!!

The rock stars !

This people are trying to drown me with waterfall!!

Finally !! drunk!!

Me!!

abit high!!

Yesh!! Poise!!

Trying to be sober !!

Countless waterfall!!

The Divas !!

Im still ok!!

After the 2nd drink!!

Thanks to rach for saving me !!

Love you babe!!

michel,rachel, shanna !

My friends!!

Cash ,me!

Make a wish ??

judyvein,rachel, candy,karen, lyn's friend, me, lyn,shanna!!

Think im super high!!

John, me , michel

Thats jackie and judyvein!!

After many parties during the week , feeling sick and tired.. Had so much fun with my friends at rebel %#& boutique .., All of them were Super sporting, as in all of them dressed in white .. although rebel wasn't crowded that night , still we were popping down vodka and all the flaming cocktails! Forgot to take the whole group pictures ... Damn!! But still, wan to thank the people that came down that night and all the presents !! Im So contended , touched by the arrangements and the efforts !!... Dont think i need to name them , will always remember wad you all did!! This group of people made this day special for me .. You people Rocks!! I loVEEEe you all!!! Muacck!!

Was high , but not drunk.. hee! Too happy to be drunk , younger days on my birthdays, always drunk. Now im grown up , don't want to be carry out of the club , Looks ugly especially when im a girl! .. Took lots of pictures with friends and another memory that will be place in my heart!! Life moves on for me , and i don't wana loo back !! Cheers to greater , happier days in future !!

Happy Birthday!!!

2008-12-18T00:22:00.000-08:00

Bye Bye Zouk out!!

High and tired !! Time for rollers!!

Sexy!!

I Love fireworks !!

HU Hu!!!

CAndy, Sam, Judy, Steffi!

Party Queens!!

Hopping around !!

When all alcoholics mit up.. Not a good Sign!! HA!

Zouk out 2008!

Lets Cam whore!!

Alcoholics!!

Im Another year older!! Time really files .. Was really glad and happy to received all the birthday wishes from all my friends , and friendster and facebook messages and wall wishes !! Will be having a mini celebration with all friends i have been hanging out with and alwayz there for me!! Hu Hu!! Rebel De boutique at clark quay!! Firstly , wana thank all my girlfriends who are alwayz so supportive towards me ...I LOVE YOU ALL!! Muacck!!! Gonna check out the party tonight?

Still, it would be perfect if my mum is still around!! Misses her tons !! , Living a life on your own wasn't easy .., neither should i say its difficult Cos im well trained by my mum!! Just misses the home cooked food from her, and sharing with her about my life , work and people around me!!

Life might be different now , but still i will be brave to walk down the road ahead of me , rainny , or sunny !! Yesh !! im made a stronger character and person now !! Emotionally ? You Bet? Hu Ha!! Oya!! enjoy all the pics from Zouk out!! Sorry for the delay .....Cheers!!

happy working and partying !

2008-12-14T12:46:00.000-08:00

Nice pic!!

Foxy!! Cool!

Random pics !!

Yea! flowers from them!!

Elf or santarina ??

The guest from philip morris!!

All the drinkers!!

If only my tummy can be edited..

Stolen from candy's blog!! hee !

How does reflection look like?

Me!!!

Sherry,Rachel tann, rachel !!

Too much to handle...

Party along the way!!

We are almost there..

Santarina !

Ha! Guess who's sleeping?

Busy taking pics!

My tummy?

Lobster feast for dinner!

Came whore babes!

Yeah!

Having fun at the beach!

Trying to get ourself in the mood!

The sisters ! Always together!!

More like my sister! ha

Pics with the party animals!!

Know i haven been blogging for at least a week!! got lots of fotos to upload!! Basically , last week had tremendous fun working with the girls at desaru ( Philip morris Pre x'mas celebration) . The Band from dragon fly were there performing too!! although we are only there for 2 day one night, the event starts in the evening, most of the time we were cam whoring, eating, partying , popping down white wine and brandy !! ... Phee! we were super tired and worn out ... Overall , We Had Fun!.. Some of the pics are from their camera cos i still haven get mine.. Sad ! although dying to get one , will endure !! Arrugh!!

Yesterday was an great experience for me, abit old fashion but still ,it was my first time to Zouk out .. Always wanted to go, but always working on the night or either tickets all sold out ! Had so much fun jumping from one booth to another . More pics from zouk out to be upload Soon!! Too tired now , and sleepy !

Reached home 8.30 am in the morning, sticky , sleepy, hungry , .. it was crazy.. Well , at least i had fun..

Yawns- nite nite !!

Happy sunday!

2008-12-07T03:13:00.000-08:00

New shoot !! only one i like !!

Same posture but different expression!

The out fit dosen't stands out!!

I change the background col myself for a change!

I love the green dress!!

I was so blur to even realize today is a eve of public holiday! Still got lots of fotos need to be uploaded .. Sigh , Plus not feeling very well these few days , Stomach upset again ... yesterday went to friends birthday at st james .. O well, party sessions are always till 4 plus 5.... Tired! Urgently need an eye mask !! Anyone can recommend a really good one?

Gonna meet the girls for dinner and out for party!! Can't be bothered to think about anything now!!

Stressed!

2008-12-04T11:58:00.000-08:00

Umm.. She is CoCo !

Happy Coco!

Funny CoCo!

Bring my 2 babies to the place ( half lake half reservoir at yishun ) !

Im Back from work .. tired.. but still wan to let you all know that i have another puppy..! She is Soooo adorable .. , tiny winy.. but loud .. bark alot ( oops ) .. Annoying at times i know , Hoping she and my baby can be friends .. Im So glad that i had friends who realli realli stood by me and also supportive , keep me going with life all this while . Just wana to say i love this people! Down to earth!! .. Recently , had some major problems with my work , i can say its quite bad . company loans , and stuff.. Bills are piling up like nobody's business .. the moment settle one comes another and its never ending and im totally stressed out , i hope i can go thru this recession too! ..

But i do believed being humble makes alot of difference no matter whether you are at work or in our social life .! I always thought i can try to accept things that you won't wan to imagine like , meeting funny co-workers every each day , customers or accidents , sometimes being quiet dosent mean unfriendly , it can be the person observing all the things that is Moving around them ..

Dec is always happy for me Since a kid.. cos there is long school holidays , x'mas , new year ! and my birthday .. It all happens only in dec.. Yea! Will try to start my new year with a new beginning .. Will leave all unhappiness behind and sweet memories will be moving to the ne year with me.. Wan to Quit smoking soon! ( Opps ! as in i will try my very best ) ... better lifestyle, better health.. Have faith and Wish me luck !!

Itz finally December!

2008-12-01T11:24:00.000-08:00

Baby looking at?

Mood shots for my baby!

Cuddling beside me!

Canon E1 power shot..( My craves !!!)

Yummy !!

2008 is coming to an end, memories is all i have with me to another new year! Oya.. I'm pretty satisfied with my blog now, Think i should blog more often since its pretty.. I dont mind strangers reading it , but i don't think i need to entertain those stupid comments .. Example: Some idiotic guy who also has a micro mini brain and somehow got himself involve in stupid problems with me and some of my friends .. The world is getting too small for my likings . I have come to realized im increasingly lazy. I cannot be bothered to voice my disagreement in conversations that i don't feel that these people are objective . Rather safe my breath for better things , like plan my schedules, which day should i go for mala steamboat, things to buy .... Ha , Thought i will sleep early , i failed and ended here at 4.30am in the morning ..

My baby is gonna get married tomolo ...Whahaha! Meaning: we have another felmale dog tomolo!

We adopting another one , So excited , haven think of names yet, A companion for my baby so he wont be bored .. Had thought for the things i have had been wanting to do for this year, although some are ridiculous , But still i wanted so much ...

Get my Belly pierce ( Don't dare!!)
Go bangkok ! ( Wad happen now at the airport and don't think so)
A Canon E1 power shot camera , (still saving up ..duno when will that be)
Hoping i can received an email from a friend whom we hasn't been contacting for 1 1/2 year.
Get my driving license back again!!
Bracelet from JUCY COUTURE!! ( Woo hoo)

26th Oct 2008!

2008-11-27T05:03:00.000-08:00

Got one of the Pic from Jo, i m So Happy!

See wad are they doing?

Cam whore !! hee

Candy 's birthday present!!Cool!

Soaking their legs without birthday gal knowing!!

Nice ambience ?

I want to soak my feet too...!!

I like curly hair !!

Sleep wear party late at night!!

Had a tremendous night yesterday at siloso beach.. Yeah! Candy's Birthday .. If would be more perfect if itz not rainning yesterday night.. Alot of friends and her family were there.. Hope she had fun ... And yesh... i woke up early to Cook Curry for her.. Passed to joanna and candy before i went for my shoot ..

These very blur girls din't take good care of my curry! Got abit burnt when heating ... Sigh!

But still, you girl's better don't complain . . Haha... The day just passes like that .. M.o.s Reopen tonite, think they change name or something , judy and gang going down tonite.. if im not too tired might join them lata .. Ha .. Still l uploading the pics from yesterday .. Im worn out !!! I Need a BREAK!!!

More pics uploading soon....

Sat drinking at zouk...

2008-11-22T02:52:00.000-08:00

The fan behind blowing till i hardly open my eyes !!

karen , eileen, steffi

Karen and me at zouk!

And that beautiful sunset..

Finalli not so windy!

Wana snap one more when there is sunset..

Don't dare to swim in sea...So Sad...

After the ride...

In the living room!

Brave candy swimming!

Nice twin size bed room!

More like a ktv room too me! Woohoo!

Candy and joanna going on a ski!

Before they go ,life jacket pls!

candy!

joanna and candy!

Me and candy !

Haven finish posting my fotos ha.. Finalli its sat , sigh...went for my ma la steamboat ...ha... Yest went zouk after work .. happens to see karen and eileen there , we had a couple of drinks and i was super duper high after they bought us E33 ... Actualli saw alot of my friends there..Quite suprised .. finalli uploaded all the pics for last week end . . Ha .. I know abit slow , be patient with me ok? ... Coming wed is Candy;s birthday.. ha promised gonna cook her my powerful curry chicken....hee.. Hopefully it taste's Good... Went to party world at shenton way after the ma la steamboat.. Almost freak out .. Saw .... Car drove past at the carpark....In my heart im thinking, Wad da? ...overall sang all my lungs out..keke.. Sunday its usually rest day and i need to unpack my stuff. .Sad..No plans yet... shall decide tml..!

Busy week!

2008-11-19T04:20:00.000-08:00

memories and more memories!

At phuture

shot taken in the toliet!

Poise girls !!

Cant keep my hair in place !

Look who's high!!

Judyvein !!!

We looked satisfied rite?

Cheers !

Both of them are funny!

At butter!

With Sexy apple camwhoring ...

Were they trying to perform in the toliet?

Snap snap!

flash light not working or wad?

Yes... Its year end and lots of events coming up one after another .. Its like a birthday season where by everyone celebrating their birthdays .. Its wednesday and im rotting at home .. Super Lazy ..( yawns_) .. Craving for ma-la steamboat again ..keke! Never enough of that..

Last weekend , got a sms from my old friend's boyfriend , since we are not in talking terms , Yes! Quite surprised he text me.. Asking whether would i wan to join him at one of the pubs with his friends Hinting me ( No special reasons , saying you should know why i ask you down ) He should know wad happen between me & his galfriend .. Almost got convince to go down , but after some hesitation , decided not to go , just want to avoid the awkward situation . Some Claim to be my friend said i have no confidence in doing things and also an indecisive person, So not fitted to be --- friend ... Fine ! So be it.. Lets just lead each others own life and pretend We never met!! Well , i shall not go on detail about it Simply don't think i need to endure all this anymore .. I have a better life to lead and more greater people around me , And im happy now ..

Im fatigued after a day out on sunday .. Yacht and jetskiing Party with foods ,drinks and music blasting along the way , Wad more can you expect? Candy , joanna and me had tremendous fun that day , Popping down Champagne along the way.. Cant wait for the next outing ..Lol !

Uploaded some fotos , sweat .. More pics coming up....

Craving for more!!

2008-11-11T14:32:00.000-08:00

Can't bare to scold her with that innocent Look!!

adorable X'mas!!

Cheer up Babe!!

We were trying to cheer each other up!!

Had been enjoying myself for the past whole week but been sick again, stomach upset plus flu.. But still i wan spicy food ..Busy working and hanging out with friends .. few day ago went to Steph house for mahjong .. Ha ha. After so long , saw her dog , Sooo cute, name x'mas .. Unique , really looks very girlie and adorable ! .. Cant help it but to keep playing with her .. Took her pics .. Had been out with candy recently , she has been feeling very down , Candy , if you are reading this just wana tell you Brace up.., Know you are trying and you are doing quite well.. Cheer up !! X'mas eve show booked. Now Waiting for New year eve.. , still thinking wana work or? Happy and excited every single day !!.. Life is fragile , y choose to be sad and waste the day away like that ? Had been craving for alot of food, 1. Ben n jerry ice-creams , 2. cheese pasta, 3. Butter pop corn, 4. sashimi.. Drooling !! Arugh! Things i wan to buy, 1.japanese magazines, 2009 Hello kitty planner i saw at kinokuniya , Gold and pink colour cost about 50 bucks , Super duper sweet, the cannon digital camera 10 mp , Quite small and in baby pink costs about 319, Broke ! haha..

Cant stop listing down things in my mind.. My lovely baby pink cannon digital cam , wait for me , im coming !! Hee...

I had decided and i wont regret!

2008-11-06T12:58:00.000-08:00

Yea! Cash, Rach and jack!!

The Sisters!!

Sherry and Rach!

Cash and jackie ..Wait So apple realised something wrong!

Birthday Dinner Together!

Me and the bitrhday gal!!

Steffi.. candy!!

Apple,sherry, steffi and candy!

Posie!!

Cash trying to blend in..Funny!!

A kiss for candy!!

Party just started

Rach's birthday party!!

Its 8am in the morning!!

still not sun and the water is cold!!

Before i enter the pool!

Nobody around ..strange!

Has been feeling very down recently... some how cant explain .. Ha.. Had decide and make plans for myself and will not regret wadever i do .. Was searching for my guitar chords then , and i think i lose everything after all the shifting here and there.. very annoying ya!.. Remembering the songs i learned when i was in a cab home , the radio station was playing and im quite surprised.., first song i learn to play was bad day from Fuel... Cool band and i really like them .. the unplugged version was amazing and meaningful !! Now haven been touching my guitar for like 3 years!! Time to get it tuned again.. Hee hee.. Went to swim recently.., has been a long long time since i last swam and almost forgotten how.. Whaha.. For a change .. Too bored and miserable to explain much..

RAchel's pre birthday celebration! The gals night out !!

2008-10-30T03:58:00.000-07:00

Poise Poise and poise!!!

yummy cake!! ha!

candid shots!

enjoying the wine!

The gals are having so much fun!!

candy and me cant wait to join them in the jacuzzi!

After the jacuzzi !

Abit high !!

Even having fun with the cake!

before the party starts!!

Haven been updating my blog for a long time .. haha.. Mind have been feeling restless recently . The feeling sux plus i duno whether to step into wad gave me a nightmare before or to step backward and moved on in life .. I guess human are like this , when you know its gonna suffer big time but still insists of doing it.. How sad... Did i regret ? I hope not ... i had done wad i wana do and will not be thinking abt it anymore..

Having fun at rachel's pre-celebration party.. the girls simply enjoyed themself. Just looking forward for a better new year!!

After so long ! that night at butter!

2008-10-26T14:13:00.000-07:00

hee hee!

All the party Queenss!!

candy and me!!

Half way thru the party!!

And they are high!! haha!

Funny poise!

Random nights!

2008-10-23T15:12:00.000-07:00

Steffiiiiiiiiii.............

steffi,, stephanie,,steff

Tired From work today.. met alot alot of people ...Don't know how should i describe .. Sigh.. It has been raining almost the whole day and the weather is cold .. During my My first job at D.X.O. .. thot do promo..Arrugh..!! its a free flow beer party.. Wu hoo. ! all the a.p.b... big shots there! Stressed!! but i make it thru....

but i had fun in the end ... drinking and drinking !!

Its a enjoyable night till my second job.. Angry!.. No moments for that yet..Cant b bothered!!

If time can go back !

2008-10-22T13:20:00.000-07:00

That's how we look now ho ho ho!

Joanna & Steffi 20 years back!!!

Haven been taking very good pics lately .. guess i was tooo bored!!! but i still wana share with my friends..whaahahha! that's how joanna and me look like when we were young .. Damn funny rite .whaha.. Out of no where the album came out from and joanna show me saying"HEY! Looook! This is how look last time ! haha.. i looked so big size then! Humph!.And she is so cute, Im angry now cos think back her mum let her perm her hair and mine is just like a bowl cut .......arrrugh!! That's NOOt FAAirrr!! If time can go back i would wan a nicer cut b4 taking fotos!! But still we maintain our kinship till now... More funny photos will be uploaded Sooon.. !! got to sleep Soon .. nite nite!

Getting Pissed

2008-10-19T02:53:00.000-07:00

Illusions!!

Cam-whoring!!

Snap 1 before going butter factory!

Rainy Sunday! Feeling kinda lazy , Slacking home . . ha.. Yesterday went out quite late, Cos i had dinner at around 11plus , than i suggested to butter factory ! ! yea! Din really snap much cos our fellow friends here seems tipsy when i met up with her!! Met candy at apple's birthday party , and we started talking .. Can understand how she felt.. Only time can heal.. Pull up gal! Don't let the people around you down.. Im feeling aright and getting moved on day by day! As i had always believed , things like tat happened friends are always around! and wait ...Btw Good friends are not how many times you called each other each day, meet up per week !, its the acceptance and understanding , to except no matter how bad or good he or she is , Fat or ugly he or she is.. somehow he or she understand how you feels, and have been thru all obstacles with you . Tha'ts a true friendship i think i had come to a point and also understand ... We Can have bunches and bunches of So called good friends , but think back , who are those that really stay with you when you needed them most !! Agree? People who know me well enough , knows im over- friendly and trusted people too easily always , Strong in any other way , but weak when comes to relationship .. maybe that Explains Sagittarius character ...

-Yawns-...Tired...

ParAnoiD FreAk!

Recently Cant stand people who are SOOooo busybody reading other people's blog and started to ask Stupid Questions ?? Haha. Got kinda Pissed by those remark though, I always believe if you want people to respect you , respect others too, This is my blog and not for you to remark !!! Happy reading ? Good , Not happy ? Too bad for you cos i still dun give a !!!! .. Cant believe Spending sooo much years and more experience holding a milk bottle than me but behaving like a toddler to me .. Gosh! Such a turn off! .. Always paranoid wad people might think abt him!! , Asking Questions unnecessary plus none of HIS business, Hypocrite , troublemakers that every single people who know hates ,yucks ! Its not judgement day and i don't need you to judge ME!! Total turn off!!.. O Please.... for god sake Stay away from me !!!

Got to do some planning on my schedule !! Ciao!

Too many thoughts!

2008-10-15T02:00:00.000-07:00

That's vain pot benny! haha!

Nice Place!

Crazy gals!

Yummy Cup cakes that makes my day!

Creative Promo board! Back to school days! ha!

Timbre music cafe!

thats Wei qi! Mr shy guy!

Powerhouse on sat! hee hee!

Look at my sleepy baby!

Finally here! .. Last weekend was quite an enjoyable week for me , catching up with some friends plus been to new places ! wanted to keep myself busy with work so i wont think so much ! .. Arrugh! Recently heard this song by Kim ah joong , who acted in 200 pounds beauty! She is beautiful and the song (Byul) which she sang in the movie was Sooo touching ! Beginning to like like it .. Highly recommended! Went to a chill out place called timbre , nice ambience plus live band! Got to go prepare for work .. Catch up soon !

Time flies!

2008-10-09T12:37:00.000-07:00

Women that i respect!

9th oct is her birthday!

Wad happen after too much long island tea!

angel's Mini celebration at attica!

She luk so sweet!

I like the colour of this foto!

Time really files and year ends are around the corner! Was wandering at times wad have i done thru out the year .. Felt time moving too fast for me , too many things happen, which i find it quite hard to keep up wif.. Although too many unhappy memories left for me this year and i don't wana bring it along with me to 2009.. guess im beginning to be back on track and will b strong than ever!! Haha. Will continue to reach out for wad i always wanted.. Always tell myself move onnnnn!!!! I missed family, mahjong ,, hee hee .. wana go for a short trip soon.. keke..

No more M.O.S!!

2008-10-07T13:30:00.000-07:00

Im Soooo bored!!

Opps!! serious at work !!

shld i had a total change hairstyle!!

I need to lose weight !!!

Think im abit high ..haha!

they look demure to me!

Too bored and just wana cam whore!

Too bad fotos are not in the right side hee.. who cares!

I really like the car! Cool!

Having fun at work!

Its late and I'm still awake! recently got the news m.o.s. has closed down and i'm quite shocked and also sad about it ... Its a amazing club and i had all the fun there.. Sigh.. anyway, i had been sick lately, plus alot of drinks .., stomach cant take in so much alcohol as before, maybe cos age catching up ,whahaha.. still having lots of thoughts in mind , and lots of ?? in life that i don't understand .. Maybe time will tell . Will work towards goal and face all unpleasant things that is gonna happen .. Recently like this new phone by samsung.. its pink in colour plus 5 MP phone . touch screen also .. Hee .. had tried to take things easy as i can ! I believe there is always a lesson to learn every single day! .. better day tomolo.. Cheers !

Relaxing Sunday!

2008-10-05T10:35:00.000-07:00

So tired! came from chill!

Was bumming around at home watch t.v plus bathe my baby! Feeling so lazy to go out. Somehow happy yet sad too, Maybe was bothered by the msg! But anyway i try not to be bothered so much as itz Over! keke In the end , met up my friend for movie ..hee hee we watch eagle eye .. not a bad show but abit draggy though.. Tomolo will bk to the office .. so tonite have to sleep early . now is like 1.45am hopefully can sleep after blogging.. Mood had change and im happier now.. Recently jobs are ok , juz super duper bored , always genna levl 1 and 3 .. Super boring, but no choice .. Wanted to tell my friend how i was feeling recently , but guess he wont understand also .. So rather keep it to myself.. Long day tomolo.. yea! get my hair colour change net week ! Ta Ta!!

Bored till SLack! heez

2008-10-03T14:07:00.000-07:00

She is sweet!!!

Wad i wore to work ! hee hee

Cam whoring becos i was bored!

I like this pic i took for angel!

My ham and cheese toast!

Blogging on a sat morning! Still wake.. ya. and had my blogskin changed! and i really like it! past few days were llife for me are like quite bored , but i din care, just slog , slog and slog..... Haven catch up with my sister for awhile ever since ...Sigh! Duno was's her plann now.. . Decided to to my nails done next week , and my hair colour dyed for a change Was working with pretty candy today WE agree to have our hair dyed! .. after we end , we went levl 3 for my 2nd job,,,we all were so bored and duno wd to do ..No more parties fir me at the moment , sick tired plus boring! One more day to sunday! Recently had tried to do the things i wanted to .. SO pls let me be.. im juz wana bum ard at home whether than going out!! Just sick and tired of nightlife, hope to lead a normal life and sleep early at night! think i can? keke..

Im back!

2008-09-30T13:33:00.000-07:00

Wad was i looking for ?

Red Lava Lamp

Piggy Ash tray!

Me and Michy

Me and michy going home! yea!

Blue Lava Lamp

Wad should i Do!!

HAppy!

Back from work and also reality.. working with michelle earlier on.. din see her for quite some time and we both were complaining about the place we work. Im down with flu and still have to work..After my discharge i went home and not long, went out again.. crazy right? but i was feeling ok ..really!! When to a place there's Lava Lamp..., chill out place at Arab St.. kinda cosy yet , erm.. how should i put it ? Its a cafe and its new with wall painting Decors.. Reminds me of Art! . . Din really snap much cos i was busy with the Lava lamp on the table .. After a drink, went down to look for jo , thought wana go home after i see her awhile , but in the end say with her till morning .. Was with her company , people like Eddie Khoo the famous Euro Dj and friends.. Glad its a public Holiday cos I know i dont have to work also .. I just change my blog skin and still not used to it , thinking of changing another one that suits me , We shall see, anyway gona rest my mind , as in don't wana think about anything for now . I love the weather cos its makes me wana Curl in bed and don't wana get up hee hee ! Relaxing i Know Cya SoooOn!!

Sick and tired!

2008-09-27T09:42:00.000-07:00

Medicine !

Before work !

Kawaii Shan Shan working with me!

Boring thursday at orchard K!

Me and my cousin Banana!

I like her eye make up!

I had face the reality and accepted the fact ... These period of time was my toughest time .. I know i had became stronger after the incident happen.. i don't regret but will remember this day .. Pass few days at work was quite tough as well.. Had shifted to my cousin's place.. Cant imagine im blogging at my ward.. Got very bad Gastric Pain, Hopefully i can be home tomolo. I believe in myself and whenever my i think i made up my mind about the things i wana do . Feel quite touched today , somehow a few friends came to visit me , planning to go for a short trip soon, after this day i know its a brand new start for me .. Life is really unpredictable as in you will never expect how things could change so fast . . I recently fall in love with this song by leona lewis (BETTER IN TIME) the lyrics were really meaningful and it gave me more courage to face the world.. I really misses the time when (.......) I know im awake from a fairy tale.. Guess i will have a hard time sleeping again .. Cheers to better day tomolo... I wana get a digi cam soon!!!

Moody+ Boring!!!

2008-09-24T13:12:00.000-07:00

It's so nice to see her after SOoo long !!

Working half way and we start to Cam-whore!

And i think im Quite high already!!!

yvonne, cat and drunk me!!!

drank till my face colour turn pale !!

comparing what we are wearing !!

Miss catty, Blow a kiss for you!!

Both struggling to be sober for the shot!

Met the Hunk Cash at Arena!!

Was so shy when i walk to clark quay cos im wearing slipper!!

Feeling Bored and Moody, somehow things are not on my way, but aniwae, had made up my mind whatever thats bothering me , i will stick to my decision , Got very bad cramps today.. Arrugh. still in control, went to singtel got my wireless modem fixed, whole day just bumming around home, Plus bathe my baby .... That was the minor problems, major one still trying to get it fixed .. hopefully Soooon ! , cos im getting tired and restless , will just let tomorrow be a better day for me ..

I know it hurts and i wont forget!

2008-09-21T05:22:00.000-07:00

Last whole week was like a nightmare to me.. Things are happening one after another ..A moment that i felt things are happening too fast and sudden that i can hardly catch my breath. Feeling very helplessly and depressed .. Thinking wad have i done , wad should i do now ? Somehow i realized i was too native to face a world like this , I regretted and i know there is no turning back for me cos i have fallen into that dark hole , where by i cant really see the path ahead me, friends advised take it slow or forget everything that has happen .. I know i do not have a choice , if only time can go back to that moment , i will cherish and make it happen ..Im not afraid of falling and i will stand up to face this crude world again, Naive , foolish, silly are the words to describe me .. I had excepted the fact and i believe Time will make me a better person .

Monday bluess!

2008-09-15T11:08:00.000-07:00

Back from work !!

One more shot before heading out !!

See what i have to go thru again ?

working with pretty Val !

Me and angel at Phuture!

Before going out !

Japanese food i had last week!

Its 2am in the morning and im home from dinner at thomson road. Yesterday went little part 1, with my friends having dinner , recommend my ex-lecturer's cafe to them , hopefully they like the food there.. i only like the cheesy crepes and the curried fries there.. after that went somewhere else for coffee.. As usual , chit chat till 12 plus than go home slack.. Too bad din snap any fotos yesterday.. keke.. Went to get my bloody Theory test date again ..! Arrrugh! hate to go thru this all over again .. Really getting very impatient ..My BASIC THEORY test date will be on f#$%!!! 31th OCT 2008! i know It's a long way to go , also booked the so Call TRIAL test .. Was quite pissed when comes to this, last whole busy week was finally over and kept having problems solved and another coming in .. I think im gonna go crazy sooner or later .. 1 problem solved and 2 headache problems here again .. Think those people around me should know , Really sickening and i also wander how did i lived on with it ??? After all this will it make me a even stronger person ? Im Quite worried now cos i misplaced my Planner .. and all appointments , schedules , account numbers are all inside and i cant find , getting very uneasy now .. Think i need to visit Kinokuniya again .. Wan to go for movie on my next off day!! Yea!