One of the art work i drawn !!

Earlier this year had been to singapore general hospital for almost every single day , it was the period where by am trying to be by my mum's side fighting the terminal disease with her , hoping she will make it cos she was a strong women ... The doctors did their best after 2 major operations , fair enough , the cancerous cells in my mum were all removed !! Giving us hopes that she will recover slowly !, my mum was put in ICU ward till Normal observation ward which we all though it was a good sign.. The weight she lost was scary, from almost 60 kg and after all chemotherapy and operations left her only bones and skin .. She was bedded for 2 months , cant sit , stand , etc. we had to feed her.. During july , mums condition improved just that she has been lying in bed for too long thus her lower part of the body has lose all muscles and she got no energy to sit straight too.. We were relieved and still encourage her , telling her she has made it and its the final step where by she has to try her very best to regain her energy .. After 2 months of observation , doctors had told us my mums condition has improved and she was able to discharge and rest at home, me and my sis were in a mist of hiring a maid so that she can look after her if anyone of us not around.. Stressed!! Mum insisted to stay for another 2 weeks  and said she try to stand and all that before discharging from sgh. 

After these 2 weeks , doctors and nurses wanted to chase my mum out of hospital saying , she recovered , can be transfered to nursing home , cos she wasn't seeking anymore treatments from them , just the dressing for the operation wounds .. We had no choice but arrange her to a nursing home  at joo chiat ( SERENE NURSING HOME) . Mum dosen't seem comfortable with the place there .. We told her  to try rest and regain her energy back there. She was depending on a oxygen mask for breathing ..  We bought her dvd players , drama movies to watched to keep her occupied .. She insisted of going back home or s.g.h , me and my sis din't know wad to do so all my aunties came down , talked to her , comfort her things like that !! She listened to them  and cooled down for a moment , The night before she left us , my sis and her best friend was there , sis telling me , mum was normal, chit chatting  happily with her best friend and nurses .. How did it  happen??

I lost all confidence and weeped silently !! When a person is at their lowest , it could be even deeper in a pit hole !! I faced it , 

But that dosen't mean i had put everything to a stop !!! Totally jaded .... Had my new year resolutions made and more planning for the year 2009!!  Those who might be giggling , or trouble maker in my life , sad to say i had bid good bye to you!! You can make your most effort or try your luck on me again  , still i cant even be bothered with you!!!  Friends who are with me all this while , knowing everyone has each others problems to meddle with , im glad and hope 2009 goes well for you !! we will continue to party our way to 2009!!  Dump all bad memories , things that are not worth for and start  a new year!!!